Am I looking for a partner?

Well I have had better day that's for sure. But not to fret, I will survive. I know I am looking for someone. I am not sure what the makeup of this person is. Is it a partner as I had when I had a Mid-Century Modern store in the 80's? I do so much better teaming up with someone. I feed off that person using their strengths and make sure I overextend myself to fit into their scheme also so there is no overlap. I am a seller during the day in my regular work selling millions of dollars of specialized manufactured items a year. I have that down with no problem. It's second nature and I do it with pleasure.

But in the world of Vintage in which I live I am a buyer, purveyor and extractor of this period to enrich my life with not letting it govern me. I purchase, receive, experience and allow it to enrich my life living in the now surrounded by the past. I am not a seller. Plain fact! I am not a hoarder! I do not have this pile of possibly unwanted or junk stuff. I have carefully selected the items I want, not need. This was and is my personal entertainment, not hobby. I purposely purchased these items knowing the value of the items way exceeded the purchase price to eventually sell them. I could live in minimalism with no possessions and it would not effect me one bit. The most important things in life are the ones I love. Some people around me do not understand this, but then, they really don't know me. There is a time and place for everything and it is another one of those times in my life to move forward.

But will this person be a partner, or am I looking for a soul mate? Is it love that I require? I am not sure. Many things i am positive of, but I am ready to live alone in my life and if it happens with a woman who appreciates me as I will her, then it will happen. Am I looking for this? Am I lying to myself saying that I can do without? For sure this is a question that can be such a variable,  for it will be, when and if it happens,  dependent on the complete whole woman that chooses me. So many possibilities? What the hell it has countless difficulties and a tremendous upside.What is a man to do?

I do apologize to all, or none, for my rambling and childish grammar (I think) for this is just flowing out and I post away without a second glance. Yes apologize, I am far from faultless in this world