Something happened

I was a great day with me cleaning out an old bed room at the lake house (not where I am staying) and redesigning for my daughter as an extra room. It went well and with a couple of sixties couches I had purchased them fro  a inner city church store a couple of years ago. They originally came from from Englander Triangle, a great modern interior design store. Then all hell broke loose with the return from a trip out of town from my soon to be ex wife. I guess something internally snapped in me with her statements to me.I just came over wrong from her and in front of the children. I did not loose my cool as I am a greatly respectful person and do have control. But something happened. Inside everything scrabbled. I just was appalled with her statements and thankless attitude toward me for everything I had had just recently done to help her with things. These were things I did not have to do, but the giver I am I offered and did without need or wanting for her to show appreciation. I feel like I am falling, vertigo, and I am without reason. I wanted to argue me point, with great vigor, but it would help nothing. Instead I left drove around for more than a while, got a bottle of Sake and started to loose my composure. I can not wait to be free completely again. It's really not free I need as I love. Love for the unknown and known, the sharing of all and comfort of a warm lover.
I almost drove into a wall tonight when I was driving and I can't tell you why. I hope this passes. I will spend the day in the inner city, yes the ghetto in Detroit as I provides me with the comfort of the post modern destruction. It how I feel right now, still standing but horribly burned on the inside

Here is a little taste of my trip last week giving you a view of what is left and not left here in Detroit.

I hope this feeling goes away