I Learned Something Tonight - Love and hate

Well its funny how when you wish for something, something happens and it's not always the result you wanted. I yea, it's not and its shitty how hard it scan strike you. Below the belt they hit with a twist like a dull knife in the chest. I always knew you could not make someone love you. I always knew that love lost is lost forever. I just did not realize how dumb I was. It's possible for someone to love you just enough, yes that tad over the edge from not love or even hate, just to keep you hanging for torture. Not that they mean to torture you. Not that they planned it or try to or need to, they just do without trying. It's all they have left of a relationship and they have no compassion or consideration left. You can try to change and what they want is more change. 

But when is there nothing left of who you are? Don’t you want someone to love you for who you are? Its little things that are thrown at you (or place so carefully like to trip you), big things and things that you do only once or things that don’t matter at all. It’s dragging up things from the past and placing in discussions of the present. They do it with great skill and crush you in the moment where you are attempting to reconcile. Even open your inner self. This person you love does this when you are beyond vulnerable with your soul like a brain open in the middle of surgery. 

They are never going to love you like you love them. They don't understand what they are missing each passing moment. They will never feel what you feel. Give up on it or just give up on your self.